Okay so… mastering focus is still mostly a fantasy for me in 2026
Mastering focus feels like one of those things everyone pretends they’ve figured out but secretly nobody has. I’m sitting here January 22 2026, 11-something AM my time (wait no that’s IST, I’m actually on Pacific time so it’s like super late/early whatever), kitchen smells like yesterday’s garlic naan that I burnt while trying to “multitask cook & answer emails”, and I already opened Twitter four times since I told myself “okay NOW I start writing for real”.
My desk right now:
- three empty Diet Coke cans
- charging cable doing that stupid tangled snake thing
- Post-it that says “FOCUS DAMMIT” in my own handwriting looking more like a cry for help
- phone face down but still vibrating every 8 minutes like it knows I’m weak


This is the raw unglamorous reality when I try to stay on track.
Why I keep losing the battle against distractions (no filter)
I’m not diagnosed ADHD but sometimes I wonder. Not even kidding—last month I spent 2 hours researching “adult onset ADHD symptoms” instead of finishing a client deck. The irony was so thick I could’ve spread it on toast.
Typical derailment sequence from yesterday:
- Open laptop with good intentions
- Check email real quick
- See one interesting subject line → click
- Article has a link → click
- 37 minutes later I’m watching a guy restore a 1973 Ford Bronco in 4K and feeling emotional about rust removal
I didn’t even need a car. I live in an apartment. I don’t drive manual.
Things I’ve tried that sometimes move the needle (keyword: sometimes)
Look I’ve read Cal Newport, James Clear, that guy who wrote about monks or whatever. Here’s what actually sticks for more than three days:
- Phone jail. Not silent mode. Physically in the bathroom with the door shut. The walk is enough friction that half the time I think “eh nevermind”.
- One single ugly website blocker. Using Cold Turkey right now because it’s meaner than Freedom. It literally won’t let me turn it off until the timer ends unless I restart my computer which feels like admitting defeat.
- The “two-minute cruelty rule”. Before I let myself check anything I have to suffer for 120 seconds doing nothing. Just sit. Feel the itch. Most times the craving dies.
- Wrong music is worse than silence. I used to love lo-fi hip hop radio. Now it makes me anxious because the girl still hasn’t finished her homework after 7 years. Switched to myNoise.net rain-on-tin-roof + distant train. Hits different.

The avocado incident 2.0 (fresh embarrassment dropped yesterday)
Yesterday 3:14 pm I was on a roll. 48 minutes straight work. Personal best 2026. Then brain goes: “wait… is avocado toast still trendy or are we over it” → Google → lands on some TikTok debate → now watching people argue whether putting chili crisp on avocado toast is cultural appropriation or genius → 1 hour 11 minutes later DoorDash notification: “Your avocado toast with chili crisp has arrived”
I paid $19 for emotional support toast. I hate myself a little.
Random focus hacks I’m testing this week (pray for me)
- Writing the next three sentences before I’m allowed to check anything
- Putting AirPods in but playing white noise at volume 4 so I can still hear myself think but not the neighbor’s toddler screaming
- A physical 25-minute hourglass I bought off Amazon. When sand runs out I have to stand up and touch the wall on the other side of the room before resetting. Forces movement.
- Only allowed to open YouTube if I say out loud to my empty room “I deserve this break and I will return in 12 minutes”. Saying it makes me feel ridiculous enough to usually skip.
[Insert Image Placeholder 2: Macro shot of a cheap Amazon hourglass filled with bright blue sand sitting on a cluttered desk. Sand is halfway down. Next to it a sticky note that reads “don’t you dare flip me early – me to me”. Slightly out of focus coffee ring stain creeping into frame. Vibe: hopeful but clearly doomed.]
So yeah… this is where I’m at
I’m not cured. I’m not even close to mastering focus. Some days I win 2–3 good blocks. Some days I lose to chili crisp propaganda and existential car restoration videos.

